pollen spools out, words scatter through a waiting room window, 2021.
Live-performance as HD video, 18:51 mins, with Marie Tučková.
Performed at Understory Chant, The Dutch Art Institute & Sonsbeek 20-24,  26 August 2021, Posttheater,  Arnhem, Netherlands

In the waiting room, history performs its own waiting. Romance is a bite from an open window, the stench of it burnt her nostrils. Earth is deadnamed. As the stench of geraniums fill the room of a theater, a waiting room is performed onstage and a love scene unfolds between two more-than-human beings ‘Fowelley’ & ‘Gabriel’, in a perpetual coming-of-age that never arrives.

Mining the romantic horror of trans-femininity from the score of Alfred Hitchcock’s cinema classic Vertigo (1958), the performance-for-video troubles real-life experiences of how trans communities share gender affirming care outside of official medical channels into a noxiously desirous play of more-than-human sense, crossings and pollinating intimacy. Featuring a musical performance duet with the artist Marie Tučková, “pollen spools out, words scatter through a waiting room window” is an ecosexual ode to the ways in which our bodies, both human and more-than-human meet and exist for each other in the waiting room. A love scene for friendship in the horror of a shapeshifting yolk.


Marie and I sing an ode to the sexual lives of plants and insects. Scene d'Amour from Hitchcock's Vertigo is reworked into a long score of intense anticipation without release, I receive a phone call and am given a vat of gel, sharing hormones. The stench of geraniums fills the room of the theatre, the gel is noxious and contagious. Marie and I excessively rub the gel on our legs, dance in the slippery, and embrace on a chair whilst the deep scent burns nostrils with autotune narration for an alien leaking being somewhere else/out-of-scene, in another waiting room.⁠

"In the waiting room, we will find the means at all costs to exist for each other, and stage the plan for which we no longer exist, for each other." ⁠

A score from the performance ‘pollen spools out, words scatter through a waiting room window’, acting as an improvisational movable-map.⁠

Special thanks to Dagmar Bosma, Marie Tučková, Kari Rosenfeld, Azul de Monte, Sabel Gavaldon, Joel Furness, Mia van den Bos, Barby Asante, Lisette Lagnado, Momtaza Mehri, Giulia Crispiani, Peter Sattler, Gabriëlle Schleijpen, Xenia Klein, Snejanka Mihaylova, Rory Pilgrim and all transing* beings.  

Supported by Gasworks and the Dutch Art Institute, with Sonsbeek 20-24.